Nervous, Feared, n WRONG~!

Good afternoon, I'm back for more
I just finished my homework, an essay and mathematics in an hour and a half's time
Not a bad record for me =)
Oh, Happy Father's Day, I just remembered, damn... >.<

As most of you already know
I went for a selection test of some sort yesterday
Tried my best
Just wasn't sure if I did better than the others
Well, doesn't matter
I felt good
To be meeting so many new people yesterday
Though I hardly talk with anyone
I never felt more friendly
I smiled at almost everyone who looked at me =)
Still, it felt weird
It's usually others' warm smiles who caught my cold reaction (I didn't do it on purpose!)
Then it was the other way round yesterday
Not everyone of course
There was this girl who sat in front of me,
She seems kinda nervous,
I mean, it doesn't mean that I wasn't
Still, she seemed to be trembling a little
So I tried to smile at her
But  every time she looked at me,
she turned back when she realized that I was also looking at her before seeing my smile =.=
Really, what's with her?
I was trying to chill her down, LOL
It feels weird, that there's actually people who's THAT shy >.<

Anyway, as a few of you already know, especially eomma and unni who also went there with me
I did something crazy
I brought both my cell phone and mp4 there
Both with all the songs and oppa's pictures >.<
I remembered when we were on our way there,
eomma who's sitting beside of me
Asked : “你带两个电话做么？”
My answer was : “这电话来咩？” (holding my mp4) xD
In fact, perfect JaeJae always bring 6 around
I'm still wondering why's that xD

Anyway, it is so wrong
I've not been crazy over oppas for quite some time since lately
I know how it goes
First, you feel excited for you love someone new =.=
Then, you feel as if contentment is sucked out of your life 'cuz you wish for his happiness
And, you even cry for him whom is not even related to you (though I've not cried for this one yet :P)
IT IS ALL WRONG!!
I'm young with bright future
They are not supposed to distract me
Though they inspire me
They also fragile-ise me
-sigh-
I don't know what to do

I went for my final piano lesson this morning before my Grade 5 exam this Thursday
I made a few mistake which I usually don't for I felt kinda nervous
I don't know what to do if I happen to be more nervous during the exam
Really, I don't know what should I think of to hold my nerves
Should I keep on reading bible these few days?
Or should I keep on thinking of oppas to inspire me?
Or should I just hit myself on the wall or something so that I've physical pain to be worried of rather than the exam?
-sigh-
I feel helpless~~~~~~~~~~~~ (dreading)

Really, I need your suggestion....